Bit Over More Than You Can Chew.

Ever had that feeling?

Right at the moment, I have a very bittersweet feeling swirling in my gut, occasionally making my chest clench and heart flutter. 

I have now been made aware of something I did not know before. I never really researched my university or my course that much before and after I auditioned. I knew what it was about and I knew I wanted to give it a shot. 

Now I know better. The East 15 BA acting and stage combat course is the only one of its kind in the whole world. We are 16 people who have been accepted, out of several, several hundred (we might even be talking above a thousand applicants here, but I don’t actually know the exact statistics). I already knew this was the only course of its kind in the UK, but the whole world? That’s quite something to have casually thrown in your face, late at night on one of the local pubs. 

I keep asking myself, how did I get in? How did I manage this? I of all people am one of the lucky few accepted. How did this happen? I am also the only one in my year that didn’t audition for the actual acting combat teachers. 

And so I got a bittersweet feeling swirling in my gut, occasionally making my chest clench and heart flutter; I’m hesitantly proud of myself, terrified I only got in by a fluke and don’t actually have what it takes, and anxiously excited to get started.